Time keeps flowing like a river...

I have been thinking a lot recently about time. January... ah January.... my world fell apart. I didn't think I'd make it from one minute to the next let alone until almost Septmeber. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep.. couldn't focus on anything, and almost failed all my classes. A lot of therepy and crying... and here I am in August... strange how time can fly but yet seems to stand still.

The thing about pain though... well they say time heals all wounds... not so sure. I don't think about it all day every day any more. I can go short periods of time without thinking of that day. But sometimes when I least expect it, I'll have a flash of that day, and I feel as though I am there again, and I can't breathe, I feel like all this progress starts over. Will I ever trust completely again? will I always be this paranoid mess? Will I ever truly recover? I guess in my case maybe I need more time and therepy. I know it will be a long time before I can forgive, and I don't know that I will ever forget. But, with pain do we ever forget? Maybe when it lessens in time and the memory fades a bit. Guess only time will tell. Ironic isn't it.

Well all I have to say is thank God for my two besties. I would not be here today without thier love, support and patience.

Louee turns 1!

So our kitten Louee is now one, he has grown so fast. We had a birthday party for him. I know right, before you judge, I did it for Chris and I's niece and nephew. Hannah LOVES my cats. She knows everything there is to know about them, I mean everything. She could tell you where I found each of them, why Pugslee is declawed and Dru and Louee aren't. She is a sponge, she absorbs. So, Darren and Anne were going out for their anniversary the week of Louee's birthday and we were watching them. I thought what would be more fun for kids that love cats, than a birthday party? Except that I don't really know what you should do for a cat birthday party, its not like they can play games with you... pin the tail on the dog??? hmm...oh wait he is a dog... or at least he thinks he is.

So I decided to make Louee his own party hat and then make individualized ones for Hannah and Isaac. Yea trying to take pictures of Louee with a party hat on was hilarious, I walked away laughing and bleeding. He's not a fan of hats. Then I made mini cupcakes that were the perfect Hannah and Issac size. Then I saw these tissue paper pom poms on Martha Stewart, and decided to go for it, since I had the urge to make them, but had no idea what the occasion would be.. now I had one, a silly one but hey.

So Chris made homemade pizza dough and let the kids make their very own homemade pizza. We then lit some candles on the cupcakes, and the kids blew them out. We sang to Louee.. that was hilarious, he was so freaked out. Chris was holding him and he looked like he wanted to climb him and hide on the ceiling. Then we had mini cupcakes... the kids fed the cats kitty treats, since they can't have cake. All in all it was very silly but a lot of fun. Chris and I bought them coloring books, crayons, and doodle books for them to have at our house cause they love to color and draw. So Hannah and I colored. Then we watched about 3 kids movies. We could not get them to go to sleep. Chris however had no problems.

But my most favorite moment of the night was when Hannah was playing air guitar to Kiss’s “I Wanna Rock and Roll All Night”. The girl can Rock!

He does love me

my pom-poms

homemade party hats

Singing to Louee

In their Home-made party hats
Chris showing them how to roll their dough for their pizzas
Hannah & Issac sized cupcakes
Them coloring

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was good as usual. We drove to Idaho on Wednesday night, when we got there we went out for dinner and then stayed up late baking pies and visiting.

Thankgiving day was good, we had sooo much food and we kept forgetting stuff cause there was so much food, then we would be like oh wait we forgot this we forgot that.. but it was a good day. we enjoyed getting to spend time with Margie since we hadn't seen her since like March.

The apple pie Chris requested

group picture
Can't forget Gerald. He does love me...

Group photo take 2

Marg & I

New Edition... Louee!

So back when Chris and I first started dating, He was new to the cat thing. He was never really raised with any animals except rabbits, and they lived in California so they were outside. He was kinda wierd about Dru and Pugslee for a while. I told him The boys and I were a package deal, as I had had Pugslee my entire adult life and got Dru only 2 years after Pugslee. He said that was fine, but, if I got any more animals that he would leave me. Well after 5 years, there is so much love in his heart for animals and he never realized the bond you could form, and that they could be part of your family. So for a couple months HE was begging me for a kitten. I kept telling him that kittens are so much work, and he kept begging.

Well Margie's cat Shirlee just had a litter of kittens and Sue had taken pictures and sent them, she was having a hard time finding homes for them. So I told him if he truely wanted a kitten to pick one from her litter, and so he chose a square short haired white kitten with blue eyes.

So we told Margie we wanted this one and she found home for all but the white one and a little gray calico. We so weren't agreeing on names, and then during a conversation with Kellie the name just hit me. Louee. It has special meaning as my mom's middle name was Lou. So we decided that at Thanksgiving we would pick him up. But Margie couldn't find a home for one she was calling birtha.. so I placed an ad on KSL and had a home for her in less than 2 hours.

I would pick her up with Louee and bring her to her to her new home. She was to be a little girls Christmas present. Well we met Louee and Birtha, and they instantly loved me. love at first sight. Chris and I fell inlove with Birtha too we so wanted to keep her. But her new owners were eager to met her so we had to give her up.

One thing for sure, Chris was not prepared for how much work Louee would be. We are primed for actual kids now to say the least. he said he now understands why people say "they're cuter when they're asleep!" LOL

Little Louee ( though he's not so little.. Biggest kitten I've ever seen)

Hard to believe he is only like 3 months in this pic he looks like a 1 year old cat

Louee and his new mommy

Birtha

She always turned her head sideways when she was trying to understand things

miss her

huge paws!

Louee's "Birth mom" Shirlee

Decorating for Christmas

Well we had to get a new tree this year. Our couch took up the spot where out 7 foot tree normally goes... and the little spot we had for a tree has a lower ceiling and not even big enough for our big tree.. and decorating is my favorite thing to do, so we got a little 4.5 foot tree so we could still enjoy a tree.... Here are some of the highlights..

Finished tree

New hurricane with bells and bear lights
My decorated modern trio

Tree

Finishing touches

2009 Ornament

Prelit is so my best friend...

New Moon Event

The new moon event went really well. We had 26 people and honestly probly could have sold more tickets. I made a huge pot of chilie and Sarah made some potatoe soup and we had a really good dinner. We then did drawings for new moon stuff and watched twilight before heading to the theatre to watch New Moon. Honestly I really liked the movie. I didn't like twilight.. it kinda pissed me off probly cause I love the book so much, but I thought this movie was everything it needed to be.

Cheesy.. but the opportunity was there

Take two
Mary Ann

Lala & Kellie

Chris and I.. he is such a good sport

Lala & I

The "Charmed Sisters"

My work firends

Mary Ann, Crisanta, and Brittany

Lala & Kel

Swag bags

Kim & Steve

Loved Steve's Shirt! Kim & Steve share my love of Buffy!

Lala & Kel

Sarah, Lala & I